What Are You Doing Here?
I hope this sharing of
my experience is helpful, especially to my brother priests and those who
prepare people for the sacrament of reconciliation.
I have been a priest for
thirty-three years and a preacher of parish missions and retreats. During
my first year of priestly ministry, I was sent to a small rural parish to
preach a mission. On Saturday afternoon, I went to the church to "hear
confessions" as we used to say back then. The church was empty, and I sat
in the small, dark confessional wondering why no one was coming. I opened
my breviary and began to pray. A long time passed without anyone coming
into the confessional.
I was a little
disappointed that no one seemed to want to "go to confession" when
suddenly I heard a voice: "What are you doing here?"
The voice was so clear
that I thought someone was outside my confessional talking to me. I pulled
the curtain aside but found no one there. The church was completely empty.
I sat back once again and the voice came a second time: "What are you
doing here? You have no right to hear what you are about hear. Only I have
a right to hear what is said in this place."
I suddenly realized Who
was speaking to me. "They are coming to Me, not you. Only I can forgive
their sins. You are given a great privilege to share in the most intimate
moments between Me and My people."
A great peace came over
me and a deep sense of awe. I realized in that moment that celebrating the
sacrament of reconciliation was not a
job a priest did, but an awesome
responsibility and privilege.
Since that day, I have
always loved to celebrate the sacrament of reconciliation. I find that my
knowledge of God deepens through being His instrument. I am amazed at the
ways God uses me during the sacrament of reconciliation, and the blessing
it is to those who approach the sacrament in faith and
hope.
Fr. Edward R. Wolanski, CP Shelter Island Heights, New
York