My grandfather
suffered a heart attack while returning from his Christmas Eve confession.
Grampy died as he hit the sidewalk walking home to our house in the snow.
Neighbors carried him in.
I was twelve, and I
was devastated. This can’t be, I raged. How could God let him die on a
cold, lonely sidewalk all alone?
Despite his
eighty-four years, I thought my grandfather would be with us forever. He
was a widower, a gentleman who always wore a tie to dinner, and a gentle
man who lived his faith quietly and well.
Grampy’s presents
were all wrapped under the tree. His pipe and newspaper were still where
he had left them. It was a sad, confusing Christmas. A week later,
however, I realized that I had underestimated God’s generosity toward my
grandfather.
A parishioner called.
She told my mother, "I saw your dad at church on Christmas Eve. I didn’t
put it all together until I read his death notice, but then I had to call
and tell you."
The woman had seen an
elderly man leave the confessional and approach the manger by the altar
rail. He knelt in prayer, gazing at the statues of Mary and Joseph and the
still empty crib.
"There was a warm,
golden light that encircled both the manger and your dad," said the
caller. "My friend next to me saw it, too. And oh, when he turned there
was such a beautiful expression on his face, full of peace and joy. His
face was radiant."
Grampy had died
minutes later.
The caller’s story
helped me to realize that God had not let this good and faithful servant
die alone. No, God had been there to hear his last whispered confession.
From the tabernacle, God had seen him gazing with love at the crèche. And
I was sure God had welcomed Grampy home as he was born into new life that
snowy Christmas Eve.
Gail M. Besse Hull,
Massachusetts